Friday, June 29, 2007 ♠
♥ 1:29:00 AM
We were filming over the holidays for one of our IS project. Filming was fun, it was a whole new experience. We went exploring Singapore for interesting places to film. Hao had also kindly agreed to help us out on our project, so bascially we got to spend our holidays together as well. haha... i had the best of both worlds. We went from Chinatown to Kovan to Clake Quay to Clementi. May be heading to changi airport for one of our scenes as well.
Some snap shots during our film. The NGs were hilarious. After the grading of the project and i have the time, i may post it. Just for laughs.
Cast and Crew.
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Monday, June 25, 2007 ♠
♥ 12:31:00 AM
It nearly ate me up just now. My past, the memories. It was scary. Real scary. I felt like i was losing myself, i was losing my purpose. I didn't deserve what i have now. I felt sad.Lucky for me I had Hao. He brought me back. He was talking to me all the time. He assured me. He calmed me. I promised him i would move on and this time i really mean it. No more empty promises.
A change of url with the probability of setting up a password. No more unwanted readers that will affect me.
I'm weak now but at least i know i still have Hao. He's my strength.
signing off
Saturday, June 23, 2007 ♠
♥ 8:27:00 PM
Some stuff just keep repeating itself. I can't help but smile to myself. Sometimes i feel that it's not other people who have problem but yourself. If something similar keeps repeating, then it says a lot right. haha...this is not the first time I'm reading something similar that's happening. Yeh and I can tell you the ending cause I had a fight with you before. Friends of hers would be sticking up for her, calling you some dumb shit and blah blah blah... and she would be "fcuking you...". So predictable.
I was on the receiving end once and it was really dumb now that i think back. Such a waste of time and effort. Some people just do not deserve it.
It's still my sore spot. The events appear and hunts me at times. I should have casted it away a long time ago, that's because it would be unfair to the person I'm with now. I'm very happy with my life now. I'm so happy for having someone who is so understanding towards me.
I've always said I would never regret any decision i made but this time it's not true. I regretted my actions in the past. I should move on.
Lesson learnt, never make a wrong move in life because it'll come back and hunt you.
I make it sound like it's some big deal but actually it's not. It's just that i read something and it jolt back some memories.
I'll be forward looking from now onwards because i have a wonderful life ahead and i won't be walking alone because i have Hao as well.
Hao's away at Sentosa and I do miss him. Enjoy your stay there baby.
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Thursday, June 21, 2007 ♠
♥ 12:31:00 PM
Was surfing through friendster and this came into me. When a girl and a boy gets together, they usually come from similar background. Even if they are not, one party would definitely take up something that the other party is passionate about. That's the power of love.
Girl's from canoe pole, Guy's also from canoe polo.
So sweet. whee...
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♥ 9:43:00 AM
Since i have some time to spare before heading to sch, i thought i might as well drop a post.
Went to Tp for training yesterday. Really a great place for training, felt so zen there. With trees and the sky plus water sprinklers as companion.
Partner training yesterday. Trained on competition mats. Not as slippery as compared to Np's floor thus it led to me having blisters on the sole of each feet. Saying that it hurts not even a bit would be lying.
It was sparring training yesterday. Punched and got punched. That's a lesson learnt. Says who fighting was easy.
I don't have enough time each day. I wan 48 hours a day. I have countless of datelines to meet.
I've moved to kovan.
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Monday, June 18, 2007 ♠
♥ 11:27:00 PM
the warrior of light
A warrior of the light does not only use his strength; he also uses his opponent's energy.
Upon entering a combat, all he possesses is his enthusiasm, and the moves he learned during training; as the fight progresses, he discovers that his enthusiasm and training are not enough to win: experience is necessary.
So he opens his heart to the Universe, and asks God to inspire him, so that each of the enemy's blows is also a lesson in defense for him.
His companions comment: "see how superstitious he is. He has stopped the fight in order to pray, and respects his adversary's tricks."
The warrior of the light pays these provocations no attention. He knows that without inspiration and experience, none of his training will bear fruit.
The warrior of light has always been one of my favorite books of all time. Every time i pick it up to read it, i always end up with a different perception from the previous. I like the above entry.
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Sunday, June 17, 2007 ♠
♥ 6:36:00 PM
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♥ 2:29:00 PM
Do you know how much i miss you. I miss u so much. So much that i can't control my tears. So much that i feel so lonely. So much that i regret all my actions that always bring us into a discussion.
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♥ 1:40:00 PM
It's been a emotional roller coaster ride for me these past few weeks. Extreme feelings were felt. Sadness, anger, happiness, frustration, loneliness, fear. Don't ask me why i felt all those, i'm searching for an answer for myself as well.
Looking at the ring on my finger as well as the scars on my knuckles, it's an irony. I love you yet i hurt you. I've changed. No longer the girl who couldn't care less. No longer the one who was not afraid of anything. No longer the one who thought that no one was worth dying for. I'm afraid now.
I live for myself no more. I'm living under the shadow of someone. Someone i don't even know very well. Maybe not even very well, i don't even know her. She doesn't know me at all yet I'm being judged. I'm willing to eat humble pie just for you but i need you to be on my side. Am i asking for too much. I'm afraid to loose you. Maybe i shouldn't care, i should just lead my way of life and fullstop. You are great, sometimes too good for me. I can't match up.
I was selfish, too full of myself, too egoistic. Hated to be alone in the past yet now I'm trying to trying to find solitude alone. I'm withdrawing. I can't mingle any more. There's no more topics to talk about. That's the new me.
I want things but i can't seem to get it. Frustrated but I'll push on. I will get it someday.
I love you. I really do. You look great and I'm serious. The scar doesn't make you look any worse. You're sexy. You are.
signing off
Thursday, June 14, 2007 ♠
♥ 5:14:00 PM
My first sparring session was last week. Has been wanting to blog about it but i just keep pushing it back. My my my.... it's not easy to fight the right way. The white belters had been practicing all the moves with the air for close to one month plus and finally last week we could practice with a real person. It's so different within the 2. When it was my turn to sparr, all the moves were running through my head, i didn't know which to use. Fake, punch, punch, or to fake, sideway kick, or to just wait for the opponent to start attacking.
In the end, i just whacked. I kneed my opponent right in the side of the ribs. The blow was pretty hard i would say. I felt bad. That got me a foul as well.
I didn't know how to react or what to do in a match. Actually i don't know what to do now either. I kept focusing on the spot she lets her guard down but in the end i keep letting her score. It gets frustrated at times.
Well, i guess it's only my first time and i should go easy. I'll just have to practice more on my own. Kick kick punch punch.
I wanna train up my left hand until it's so good that it can score.
Karate's again tml. Can't wait.
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♥ 3:34:00 PM
Went to sentosa on the second day of the holiday. An enjoyable trip. Quality time spent together.
Woke up early so we could have more time together. Our first stop was to Vivo city's Giant. Went to there to get all out food stuff for the day. We really bought lots of stuff. Chips, chips and more chips. Not forgetting drinks as well and our favorite curry puffs from ock. =)
Only 2 people but i think we bought food enough for 4 person. And we lug our shopping bags to sentosa.
on the sentosa express.
IT started raining as soon as we step foot onto Sentosa. Dampened our spirits a little. We took shelter at the food center and basically our whole morning was spent there.
The sky begun to clear only in the afternoon. And off we went to busk in the sun. Built a heart in the middle of the beach. Took us quite a while because we were stupid enough to build it very near to the sea. But it was still an accomplishment because we conquered the waves and got the heart standing.
Busy at work.
Happy with the end result.
our heat. =D
I've been to sentosa for so many times yet i've never realized that there's a small island which is the southermost point of Continental Asia. It connects from Palawan beach itself.
The 2 of us decided to walk over to the small island.
The view there was breathtaking. Some shots that were taken over at the small island.
some other shots...
our slippers. haha...
I really enjoyed myself that day baby. Thanks.
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Sunday, June 10, 2007 ♠
♥ 5:46:00 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE AND SERENE.
A BELATED ONE TO RONG HAN AS WELL.
haha... rong han, if u see this could u send me the photos we took at your birthday celebration. thanks lots. =)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE.
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♥ 5:32:00 PM
HOlidays are finally here. 2 weeks of break.
During of the days last week, we both went neighbourhood visiting. He has always to my neighbour for a number of time but i've yet to see his. Therefore that day, we went walking round his neighbourhood. Nice environment he lives in. Nice house. =D
A photo taken at the bus stop near his house.
For the past few days, lots have been happening. Lots of unwanted discussions took place. Options to leave were thrown to us. I chose not to accept it cos i'll never survive alone again. I'm so sorry you have to put up with all my nonsense for the past few days. I hope this is just a passing phrase.
I love you.
His selection is today. Not being worried at all would be a huge lie. I'm worried the hell out of me. I want him to leave the square unhurt. I pray. I know how much the selection means to him and i have faith in him. It wouldn't be easy but it would be within his reach. All the best hao. I'm always behind you.
I've uploaded pics on myphotoalbum.
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♥ 5:23:00 PM
Hao got me one of the biggest rose i've ever seen.
Walking down Orchard road and people were looking at it. Reason was because, the stalk of rose was really big. One lady even asked if it was real. Tat was the biggest stalk of rose i've ever received from anyone. Thanks dear. =D
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Friday, June 08, 2007 ♠
♥ 1:52:00 AM
My old friend from TPJC sent me this link. Music video of TPJC. How cool. I have no comments. haha...
Check it out. Yes, the song in video is the school song. : 0
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Sunday, June 03, 2007 ♠
♥ 3:28:00 PM
hey peeps i'll be moving on the 15th of june. My previous home line has been canceled, if you need to look for me just contact me on my handphone.
I'll miss tampines and all my friends living so close to me. haha i'll miss going to charmaine's house. It won't like be just like a stone throw anymore. I'll miss having lunches with Aud and Chee at Tampines mall. I'll miss everything in Tampines. I've been a Tampines girl for the past 12 years.
I'll inform you guys again on the house warming dates. =D
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