Thursday, November 29, 2007 ♠
♥ 10:53:00 AM
Having no money sucks big time. I forgot my wallet today. eEEeee. And to make things worst, i fell. Thank goodness i fell at a place that was kindda covered with all the trees and plants so not so many people saw that. If not so malu. hahah...
I wanna watch hitman. Anyone wanna catch it with me?
Chuckles.
Eh, chee and aud, wanna join me for a day at poly. come crash my lectures. =D
signing off
Tuesday, November 27, 2007 ♠
♥ 12:56:00 AM
The past days i was
kindda following the news of the
dragon boat team tragedy. It saddens me to know that 5
members will no longer be able to make it back to Singapore again.
I don't know why but
i'm just
kindda sad over the whole
episode.
Life's so
fragile.
I'm sure all these young males worked real hard to get into the national team, to be able to don the team
singapore jacket must be a very glorious event.
Yet in the next instant all these young males just vanish from us. Life is indeed cruel.
They may not be with us physically anymore but i guess their spirits should be carried on.
Their zest and commitment to the sport should be honoured.
I guess this incident serves as a reminder to me telling me that i should always put my best foot forward in whatever i do. I never want to live a life of regrets and never wanting to depart this world knowing that i could have done something better.
Applying this to karate, i will train hard and
follow on with my dream even through i may and will meet many setbacks.
I will achieve what i have set for myself.
Peace to the 5
athletes who gave their best for the sport. Peace.
signing off
Saturday, November 24, 2007 ♠
♥ 12:27:00 AM
ALright I'm back on the training ground today after so long. Seems like i had some long vacation kind of thing. I assume
everything's back to normal except for one incident in today's training. Gosh, no one's talking about it anymore but Mr fat just had to comment. Gee...the person is not even there anymore so what's the point of being it up again. Look who's the victim boy.
Free sparring today. Paired up with my partner. Went 2 rounds. Managed to score just that few points ahead of my partner. First round was just warming up, I guess I warmed up a bit quicker than my partner thus being able to end the match with just one point ahead.
Second round was a little different. I got that round just because my partner fouled. I think without that foul, I may not be able to win.
Everyone's good.
I always end up with a sore back after a training solely based on kicks and stretching. This time is non any difference.
I just sort of came to realise a point after today's training. I feel that in any contact sport, not only the technical skill of the athlete is important, the athlete also has to know how to act.
It sucks. All these cheapskate
tactics. I was talking to Hao and he agrees with me. The worst part os there's nothing that you can do about it. I guess that's life. Everyone can choose how he/she want the game to be played. A game fully on techniques or a game on cheapskate tactics. I would choose the former.
I still have a few photos in my Hp that i wanna upload over here but i'm just too tired.
Guess i'll be off to rest my achy back, arms and legs. Can't sit up on the chair any longer. Back feels like it's gonna fall apart. Haha... can you imagine that happening. poor thing.
Alright then.
Tada.
signing off
Tuesday, November 20, 2007 ♠
♥ 12:48:00 AM
I think this entry will be a little back dated. Got the report quite a while back. Everything seems alright in it so the doc has no idea what happened as well therefore
i'm being referred to a
specialist. Was scheduled to see the doc like sometime in may next year.
IT's like damn freaking long time later and i was thinking the medical system in Singapore sucks. Guess by tat time, 2 possible situation, 1) my arm recovered, i dun even need the damn specialist. 2) my arm's so bad that it can no longer function.
Before i was totally
disgusted with the arrangement i made a final call to the clinic and
hooray they got me scheduled for sometime in
DEc this year.
TAt's like a BIG difference in waiting time.
Think my arm's
sortta recovering on it's own already other than the
occasional achy feeling/pain and weakness in it. Maybe it's due to fact that
i've not really been going for karate for like close to one month. Guess there's really nothing wrong with it, it just got cranky and decided to throw a
tantrum.
Sch's pretty hectic this few days. It's almost a routine for me already after going through one full
sem. This time of the
sem would always be
churning out completed projects/business proposals. And tat would mean burning the midnight oils and ugly eye bags. I hate ugly eye bags, they make me look like some ugly bulldogs.
And it's like one zero four am now as i end this post. I need my beauty sleep to last me from 6.30 to 5 tml.
signing off
Tuesday, November 13, 2007 ♠
♥ 3:55:00 PM
alright i'm in bukit batok library as i type this entry. This is the first time i've every set foot in this part of Singapore.
Had to pop by the polyclinic after school today because of my eye and my arm injury.
I knew my eye was a simple thing and could be solved easily but i didn't expect my arm to be pretty much of a problem.
Had to take an x ray and currently waiting for the report to be out. It's gonna take an hour plus to me and hao decided to get some things done during the one hour.
Thank goodness Hao's with me today for i won't have known what to do alone.
Thanks baby.
Alright i'm going back to the polyclinic to collect my result. We'll see what happens then.
signing off
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♥ 12:20:00 AM
So much has been happening recently that I don't know who i can turn to.
Have you all ever experience the feeling of the wonderwall whom you've always relayed on, the wonderwall whom you'll turn to when you get into trouble,the wonderwall whom you'll share your sorrows with, the wonderwall whom you think will never get into any kind of shit.
Deep down you know the wonderwall will be find but you can't help worrying. Can't help but feel guilty thinking that the shit the wonderwall is in is because of your doing.
I don't like the way the whole situation is. I dun't wanna talk about it to the wonderwall cause I don't want to cause anymore stress to it.
Who can enlighten me on what step should i take next.
Who can tell me they understand what I'm going through and really mean it?
Who can give me everything's gonna be fine?
Who can who can...
I don't know when the situtation turned out to be so bad. I hate the way people are treating the wonderwall. Friends a moment and foe the next. I hate it.
I hate the way they put it across to me. I hate it.
I hate it that i cannot do anything about it.
I hate it that i cannot help the wonderwall.
I hate it that i cannot even help myself. I hate it.
I hate it when people ask me how am i and i reply i am fine when i'm so not.
Don't ask me that.
Reflecting upon, it's just my fault. I shouldn't have made such a request. Without that, non of this will happen.
The wonderwall is not somthing that you maggots can comment. Not fit at all. It's just so saddening. How many of you all will understand?
These maggots are damn right digusting. How am i to survive with them? I don't wanna be polluted by them. I don't want to put up a front but where can i go?
I can't leave. I have to stay. IT sucks.
signing off
Sunday, November 11, 2007 ♠
♥ 1:34:00 PM
IT's been a while since I've moved into my new house, I'm even gonna hold the third housewarming party yet I've never really taken any photos of my room and post it here. So i guess today's the day.
Welcome welcome =)
MY new room concept is very different from my previous. Being a little older and wiser as compared to the past. i decided against childish themes for my room. I went for a more sophisticated and warm look. Colour
combi would be white and pink. I really can't describe this pink that i chose. It's not baby pink yet not solid pink. It's rather a colour in between and I'm loving the pink so much.
I saw that colour in the catalogue and i told the designer that's the color i want. No qualms about it.
I got purple day and night curtains as well as deep violet for a headset to match the whole room's ambiance. I was lucky to get a matching chandelier too.
My work desk is one that i've always wanted. A glass top held by one leg frame and the other end drilled into my dresser.
MY room
I have a full length functional mirror as well and
I'm so happy about it. I can get to see every part and inch on myself before i head out of the room/
hse.
I guess one main feature of my room would have to be the amount of mirrors i have. Not only that full length mirror, the exterior of my wall mounted cupboard has mirror surfaces as well. *beams* Actually i guess that's the main feature of the whole house too. We've a whole wall mirror just beside the dinning table. Giving it a more cosy feel to eating.
There's a window ledge in my room as well. I got it cushioned up so it serves as a mini sofa seat for me as well as friends who pop by. Great place to chill, to read a book or to just stare out the window.
The view just outside my room. Being on the second floor, I get the pool view.
DAd was generous with me. He allowed me to decorate my room anyway i wanted it to be with minimal interference. I'm pretty sure the whole cost of doing up my room was not a small sum either. Thanks dad. Thanks for giving me such a beautiful room.
signing off
Thursday, November 08, 2007 ♠
♥ 3:35:00 PM
Training on Tuesday was lousy for me. Very lousy in fact. I wasn't in any form, least say top form. I couldn't concentrate, I couldn't attack nor counter. Training was just bad, went head on with all the attacks from my sepai. My reactions were super slow that day. The hits were painful i would have to say but i guess that's what i'll get if i don't concentrate in a match.
For the past few days, i've been waking up to an achy body, clammy neck and stiff muscles. I just feel so tired. Feels like something's snapping away all my energy. Sucks big time. I sure hope i don't fall ill at this time with only 2 more weeks left.
Thank goodness for the holiday today. At least i could sleep in till 1pm. Even though i still felt duper tired.
Tml's fri, the day for softball and karate.
I shall not talk about the hapening in the karate c**b. It's freaking screwed up, got me so pissed and upset. Sheesh.
signing off
Monday, November 05, 2007 ♠
♥ 10:56:00 PM
Updates, updates and more updates. Been a long long time since photos have been posted. People always say, One's a loner, Two's a couple, Three's a crowd but what do you get when there's 4 people. Great company and so much laughter.
Too bad we're short of
peiyi.
I finally went to this part of
VIVO that
i've been before. The pet safari area. The animals there are so cute but one bulldog was sick and it looked so sad. Poor little thing.
Got Rania's pres as well. Some
pervertic lion from bleach aka
kon.
Managed to have a taste of our childhood once again. Went out to the outdoor area and climbed the statues.
Here are the pics.
Quite dark so the pic quality's boo.
Shu wen, Socks, me
The other 4
th person was the camera man.
Us again.
Yes and more of us.
And
tat's the camera man for us trying to be a frog.
When a frog leaps.
and when the frog just happen to be your bf=)
awww....
My frog, my bf, my
wonderwall.
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but he can be a devil in disguise at times too.
haha... <3
signing off
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♥ 4:19:00 PM
I realise my recent blog posts were very emotional. I wonder is it due to the blog skins. Like different kind of blog skin will emit different kind of feel and thus u write in with a different mood.
Currently in the library waiting for hao to finish his POA lecture. Supposed to be catching up on my tutorials but but but...
Guess i'm burrying myself with it in a while's time.
I love mondays nowadays. I love going to school. My parents should be glad to hear this. I don't like weekends. I don't like to stay at home. My parents should be upset to hear this. Oh wells...
Dec 2 is still itching its way closer and closer to me. How i wish time will stop for the time being. I want a time capsule.
The only time that i can get my head of the whole Dec 2 issue is to go out with hao. Well not exactly get it all out but lest for a pretty long while. And so i'll be heading to VIVO with him later. *grins*
What a foolish girl.
*updates*Just as i was about to start with my tutorial, i realise i don't have my foolscape. Oh bugger. I guess it's a sign to tell me not to do it now.
signing off
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♥ 2:15:00 AM
If only life can be so simple, A be always be A and 1+1 will always add up to 2. If only there's no gray parts in life. If only if only if only things can be achieved easily.
It gets fustrating when you really try so hard for something just to be confronted with bleak future. There are people who support you on this journey, deep down you're grateful for it but you know it's not enough. It's just you're not heading anywhere with the club.
I've already lost one important factor-time. Time is not on my side. People have been training for ages yet they are not selected, what about me. I got to catch up real fast. I got to master all of it but can i?
It's one stepping stone yet this is one important step. It either make u or break u. Competition is stifle, you and i share a common goal yet i don't know if you are a friend or a foe. It's scary.
I've seen how screwed the system is. People just get axed out like tat. I know how tough it is, i wanna do more but i can i? How to get in...
I'm just demoralised. I feel that i've many open areas which others can exploit. I'm just very easily infutratedIt's only 3 more weeks from now and i dunno who am i against. I'm so not ready.
I'm just scared.
signing off
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