Monday, November 05, 2007 ♠
♥ 2:15:00 AM
If only life can be so simple, A be always be A and 1+1 will always add up to 2. If only there's no gray parts in life. If only if only if only things can be achieved easily.
It gets fustrating when you really try so hard for something just to be confronted with bleak future. There are people who support you on this journey, deep down you're grateful for it but you know it's not enough. It's just you're not heading anywhere with the club.
I've already lost one important factor-time. Time is not on my side. People have been training for ages yet they are not selected, what about me. I got to catch up real fast. I got to master all of it but can i?
It's one stepping stone yet this is one important step. It either make u or break u. Competition is stifle, you and i share a common goal yet i don't know if you are a friend or a foe. It's scary.
I've seen how screwed the system is. People just get axed out like tat. I know how tough it is, i wanna do more but i can i? How to get in...
I'm just demoralised. I feel that i've many open areas which others can exploit. I'm just very easily infutratedIt's only 3 more weeks from now and i dunno who am i against. I'm so not ready.
I'm just scared.
signing off
