Sunday, January 06, 2008 ♠
♥ 5:17:00 PM
I was on my way home from BF yesterday when this feeling of loneliness and sadness and anger and tiredness struck me. Wonder how was it possible for one to feel so many emotions all at one time, the person would burst but then again I don't think i have the emotion range of a teaspoon. So yeh guess it's possible.
I just sat at the bu stop and watched the cars and buses pass by. Think i must have missed 4 or 5 buses. I just didn't feel like boarding em'.
As the vehicles zoom past, warm tears trickle down the cheeks. I needed to have an outlet.
If only problems were like vehicles, because if they were i would keep on stepping on the accelerator and never stopping. I want all problems and troubles to zoom past me. I don't care if i crash or anything like that, maybe it's better that i crash. That's when a new start begins and when i won't be affecting anyone else.
I have a big ego. That's right. I really do. I will change but i'm afraid to. I'm afraid i'll forget what i'm feeling now and then slowly slip back to my old self. And that's the tendency i have.
I'm being such lousy person, always caring about what others feel, and wanting to gain the approval of all, and and and...
Headache. It's been bugging me for the past few days. Maybe i'll end up like the guy from the book PS i love you. Think that'll be sweet??
signing off
